My Journey

This journey that I have been on, for eight years since it began.

Has been ever so difficult to believe and difficult to understand.

You and I were still so young and still so very much in love.

Without any warning, in a blink of an eye, God took you to heaven above.

This tragedy has happened and I can't change it if I try,

So I keep trusting in the Lord above and exalting His name on high.

Because of my love and trust in God and because I am His child,

I keep moving forward day by day, God keeps my anxiety mild.

I miss you so much and it hurts sometimes and sometimes I feel so alone,

The kids have moved out and it's just me in the house and this house doesn't feel like home.

So much has happened in these eight years, I've made it through the good and the bad,

Life is so different nowadays, no comparison to what you and I had.

I'm strong because I have to be, God's plan has taken me by surprise,

My thoughts of you are always there and some memories still leak from my eyes.

My mind is filled with so many thoughts.... Of you, of our past, of my life,

I sometimes just sit and feel so at ease just knowing I was your wife.

I'm sure you would be proud of the kids and yes, you would be proud of me,

And since life can not go back in time, I keep smiling and living your legacy.

 

About the Author
I am a 54 year old Christian woman and have been a widow for 8 years. My husband died suddenly of sudden cardiac death in Nov. 2008. I am a mother of two, ages 28 and 25. I love to journal and write poetry. I have written a poem for/about my husband each year since he died.
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