I have had a few good days, i know who I am and I even know your name,
i could not figure out out why you were ignoring me and then I read my first poem,
"Who Am I" and I realized just how mean that I could be.
i want to say since I am myself that I am sorry ,
i really hate the idea of losing me and everything I am and was.
Before this moment goes away there is something I really need to say.
It was Jessi -Girl that took care of me all those months .
When I broke my ankle and could not walk for 6 months,
when i had a feeding tube put in in June, that I really did not want, she stayed with
me she cried with me, she even crawled up in the bed with me and told me
everything will be ok.
She knew how much my heart was breaking, because my daughters turned their
backs on me, and took my grandchildren away from me.
but one thing i have learned for sure,, you will pay for the pain that you cause to
others. so Jessi girl, i am sorry for being mean and hateful,
i will try to do better.. we have been through so very much,
I hope you can see, that you have become that daughter I turn too,
when I get mad, when I get sad, when i am happy,
the daughter i know i can count on to be there for me,
in good times and in bad times. I hope that there are more
good times than bad times now,.
I love you Jessi Girl.
I still love and miss my daughters, grandchildren and yes my son in laws too
every minute of every day.
but I have learned to give it all to my Lord in Prayer.
I have been blessed by wonderful, supportive family and friends who hold
on to me everyday,
and they Pray.....
you talk to me on the phone when I am scared,, you take care of me when I need
help, and i know my girls would too if they wasn't so mad at me..
God will take care of everything.
I love you.my daughters,
And sometime if you have a minute ,please come and read to me.
Mom
