BEHIND A SMILE
Someone asked me...
Just today...
How I am doing
Since he went away
I said I'm okay...
That I'm doing just fine..
That I'm holding up well...
And time is flying by
She said I really look good..
And how strong I must be...
How I pulled it together...
She was real proud of me
I didn't let on...
There was no way she could see
All the pain and the sorrow....
I hold inside of me
We laughed for a bit...
I put on a smile...
Made lots of small talk...
And all the while
I was silently crying...
For missing him so...
I was screaming inside...
I wished he didn't go
But I didn't let on...
My grief I hid...
Behind a smile...
Yes, that's what I did
We said our goodbyes...
And we parted ways...
I took a deep breath...
Thought back on that day
I felt my eyes swelling...
I blinked the tears away...
I have to keep going...
God help me I pray
I'll be with him soon...
Though I don't know when...
I just have to believe...
I will see him again
Another deep breath..
Put the smile back on...
Just get through the day...
That is who I've become
By Gwendy Vanucci