These dreams I have they seem so real,
I see you smile your skin I feel.
I miss the moments we used to have,
I love you so much and miss you bad.
I hold you close and hug you tight,
Unlike reality it feels so right.
What I would give to have you here,
No one knows me,
I seem so carefree.
No one knows me,
They don’t see the pain inside of me.
No one knows this girl I have become,
The girl that wanted to end it all and be done.
No one knows the grief,
The unsure and disbelief.
A mother to an Angel, What does that mean?
To live a life with your child never to again be seen.
To have your heart ripped to shreds,
To live each day wishing I were dead.
To never be whole again,
To have this eternal lifelong pain.
To never know the answer why,
To pass the day and only cry.
Roses are red violets are blue,
My heart is broken without you.
Today was supposed to be filled with hugs and kisses,
Instead it's filled with memories and unanswered wishes.
Roses, candy and jewelry they fiene,
To see you hug you I can only dream.
I missed you then, I miss you now,
Nothings changed to that I vow.
I still think of you each and everyday,
For your happiness I still pray.
I want you to know I'd forget you never,
My love and memories are forever.
My number one you'll always be,
Too good for earth he set you free.
As that dreadful day gets nearer,
This haze I'm in gets no clearer.
The pain I feel still remains,
The emptiness is still the same.
I packed up some of your things,
But my heart still hurts, the wound still stings.
I cried and cried to pack your things away,
When the world stops and stands still,
Along come the thoughts and memories that kill.
The could've, would've should'ves come,
Thinking of how I could've saved you Son.
They say "Hell have no fury like a woman scorned"
More like fear the woman who's child she mourns.
Whats a mother with out her baby?,
A warrior, a lunatic or even both maybe.
A mother missing her child on Mothers Day,
How do you explain the pain, there is no way.
To sit back and watch the families smile,
It's a hard pill to swallow like a mouth full of bile.
Today 365 days ago my world stopped spinning,
Your life ended when it was barely beginning.
Today is one I wish to have no part of,
This is when I lost my first true love.
366 days before this one,
I had you in my arms kissing and loving you Son.
My heart has an open wound still,
At night my mind goes free,
To dream of things I want to see,
Things I wish were reality,
But sadly things that could never be.
I dream that you were only hiding and you are still here,
And when I find you I get to hug you , kiss you and hold you near.
Then I wake up empty handed,
