This time 4 years ago the woman I called mum was approaching the end of her life.
Removing her life support gave her permission to make the final choice.
Four hours later she took her final breath.
I began my grief journey with no idea where it would take me,
I feel I have experienced every emotion I could have imagined and many emotions I could never have imagined.
The raw, the dark and ugly emotions that surface and at times take hold combined with the realisation and joy of discovering the relationship with my mum will last forever.
I miss her being here to have and to hold in the physical world and would love to hug her right now.
Knowing this is no longer a reality I have embraced our spiritual connection. I now celebrate her presence in my life everyday.
I practice connecting with her through writing, meditation, visiting places we loved and sitting quietly and chatting with her.
It's different now. Jude xoxoxo by Judy Taylor -February 2015 Author "Mum Moments - Journey Through Grief"