loss of a Son

I wake up every morningAnd Hug your mother tightWishing I had dreamt of youWhile I slept through the night I know the day is beckoning I’ve so much work aheadBut I just want to hold your mom

♥♥♥♥♥ After the funeral was all over and done everyone went home and moved on, after the funeral I couldn't move on, for me I was in denial you were goneMy life now is forever changed.His presence in my life was everyday.With memories and reminders that flash in my brainFor me it's a nightmare, from which I can't awake.

A parent's worst time comes when a child is lost. The loss is horrible and the aftermath of self-evaluation of each parent can be a painful endeavor that can last for life in some cases.As a friend once told me, “Judy, everyone handles grief in their way.” For me, it was going to see my Doctor seek help with my grief.

 In the backs of our minds, most of us realize that the unthinkable can happen. For me, that was the loss of her son Charlie, 23, who died of pneumonia.

“Being a parent isn’t an easy job – not just because it’s a 24/7, lifelong commitment, but also because we cannot bear to see our children hurt,” what’s even worst is saying goodbye to your child. I did so with my son Charlie, 23, to pneumonia in 2009.  

For me, it was the loss of life of my loved one especially my son Charlie at age 23 in 2009.I tried to be strong, but after losing Charlie my body had all it could tolerant, my heart starting racing as much as my mind.What just happened? How could this happen to us? Why didn't Charlie fight harder to survive?