What Doesn't Kill You....Makes You Different

How many times have you thought that your world could be shaken to its core? How many times have you thought that the person you are could change into someone you don’t know in the blink of an eye? None? That’s what I would have said several years ago, because I had never experienced tragedy…I had never experienced the loss of an immediate family member.

The Grief Flu

It starts in October, the fatigue, body aches, sick stomach and the insomnia. I run through all the usual predictions of what could be wrong with me and this year I finally think I got it right....the grief flu.  It will be five years on November 17 that I lost my oldest daughter Jenna.

Anniversary of Child Loss

November.....Oh how much I hate you. November is suppose to be the start of the happiest time on the calender. Thanksgiving followed by Christmas. For my family, it is the month we lost Brian in a car accident. It’s the month that changed all of our lives forever.

But here it is again, like a visitor who will not leave...November 2017....

I Am Still Here

It is almost 4 years now that my son died. It seems like a lifetime. Sometimes, I look at his picture and it becomes yesterday for a little while.  Yesterday, when I could hug him, tell him how much I love him and look into his sweet blue eyes. So much has happened after losing him and yet, I am still here.

Living a Loved One’s Values

On the first anniversary of my daughter’s death my husband and I held a graveside ceremony. It was a small gathering—a few family members, our daughter’s two children (they’re fraternal twins), the man our daughter planned to marry, and two close friends. To give the ceremony meaning, I typed a list of my daughter’s values, and printed our copy for each person.