Words for the Journey

I have to be honest...the day that the Doctor told me that my Mom would live a year or less I became consumed with her death. Every waking moment inside or outside of the hospital it was all I could think about. I made it my goal to educate myself as much as I could about her condition which was very rare.

I watched him grow throughout the weeks on the black and white screen of an ultrasound machine. His little legs and arms were longer every time I got to see him. I was in awe of his tiny fingers as they waved and his tiny feet as they danced within me. I remember at one of my prenatal appointments he turned his head perfectly ...

I love talking about my son David. He died in 2009 on the football practice field at the age of 10.

 

Okay, well technically it is- but not the kind that got you in trouble in middle school. 

They say you’re gone,But how can that be?When I still feel your presenceRight here beside me The warmth of your bodyBeside me in your chairThe smell of your cologneStill lingers in the air

The day he was born the angels cried,Knowing what life had in storeFor this child God loaned us for a little while,Twenty-four years and no more. His name means “brave warrior”Now, we know that we chose it wellHe faced every day with courage and a smile,Getting back up every time that he fell. 

Sometimes I need to sit and typeTo find what’s on my mindMy life has changed so drasticallySince you left us all behindI try each day, to live my lifeThe way you’d want me toI wake up every morningTo do the things I do

I can’t believe it’s been two yearsSince you left us all behindToday I sit and miss my boyYou’re all that’s on my mindIf you could only visit meI know that I’d feel betterOh the things that I would sayThe things we’d do together

There are moments in timeWhen I find that I laughedLike last night when Oddly I was watching a match.  Your younger brother Crawled into bedto watch with me

Sometimes when I say"I am okay".I want someone to lookMe in the eyes,Hug me tight,And say"I know you aren't. " 

Dear friends,