Words for the Journey

Blame – v. To hold responsible or find fault with.Balance – n.  A stable mental or psychological state; emotional stability.

As I live my life, I am finding the stumbling  and tripping in my world, has subtly turned into a cautious look down at my feet before I step.  My inability to not understand a new day, has  turned into a deep breath, a smile, and patient courage.  My life has been spattered by an occasional visit from the Welcome Wagon; new and wonderful people who have entered my life, &nb

  The Power in Moments 

Moving forward after a loss of a spouse is difficult and sometimes seems impossible. But one must remember that our loved one would not want us to lock ourselves in the past. They would want us to learn to live and live life to the fullest. It is not letting the love or memory go it is letting the pain go.

Lost? We all land here eventually. Which way? And no clues anywhere. All the roads can look either "hopeful" or "Hopeless" . It's the moment when you have stop searching for the horizon, and look to the map that leads into your heart. Sometimes the loneliest moments, become the most spectacular...if you are using the right map.

I miss my life, before grief walked in, and made itself at home.   Grief is something I wish would go away and forget how he found his way here. Who does he think he is, just showing up unexpected, taking control. I want him to go away, never to return. Grief is so powerful, it causes so many emotions.    

"I was beginning to find peace with myself again.  I finally felt the ability to embrace the shift in direction, and see the broken shards of glass of my life for what they really were; beautiful prisms of light.

To those of us who have children, we have found those moments in life when we are full of pride.  I have worked hard at being respectful of my children's privacy as I speak of my life, and my lessons along the way.  But this is a story that I feel is timely and I feel it is important to share it with you.

A little more than a month ago, the deaths of 20 children and 6 school teachers/administrators at Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown, CT shook our nation to its core. We collectively grieve for the families directly impacted and for the community of Newtown.

"I was beginning to find peace with myself again.  I finally felt the ability to embrace the shift in direction, and see the broken shards of glass of my life for what they really were; beautiful prisms of light.

I will never be a girl who lives her life within the invisible boundaries of the world’s expectation of perfection. I will always tell a dirty joke, and leave my house in a heartbeat for any reason to avoid a basket of ironing. I will live with baggage of sadness and keep it close, because it was “my” journey.

Overcoming your obstacles. It may mean you must look through them, and see them for what's inside. Obstacles may not need to be overcome, just left alone, and walked around.. Catherine Capra-Leaf