Words for the Journey

Here I am and would give anything to hear youI would give a big hug so tightI would have helped you make it rightSo many demons and dark issues would appearYou were so strong you never shed a tearWe were so much alikeIn so many waysI was your mini meUp until the very next dayI'll always love you my dad my best friend

I must be dumb. I keep expecting life to be smooth, even when I’m grieving.I know I expect “smoothness” because I get upset when life is bumpy. Silly. Life has always been bumpy.

                                               Rocks, Angels, and 18 months

If you cannot point your finger n like on the persons bday, you need to be cut out like cancer..Selfish and Arrogant is what you are, what is so sadYou won't get very far, no more running back to meMy life is a happy one and I was set freeTo be happy, to laugh and live my lifeYou know nothing about being a wifeToo Selfish to understand

I've lost some battles but won the warits so importantsnd so much moreI strive each day to make a newa start to be a brand new youI'm excited to be all that I am and so much morelike I said I lost the battlebut I won the warI wake up each day and thank the Lordfor always showing me 

in a moment in timemy world changed so fastill never forget how hard I workedto put behind me my pastmemories always remind meTime goes way too fastlove one anonther and make it lastin a moments timeyour life can change 1, 2, 3, I learned its bestto worry about meand of course my family 

Meditation and Grief  

MEMORY IN MOTION  

World Wide Candle Lighting12/11/16  I sit here by myselfIn total darknessWith Christmas tree lightsAnd candles. 

My dad died suddenly during Spring Break my sophomore year of high school. My family had disintegrated a few years before, and he was my world. I was stunned, and numb.

I no longer count this time in seconds, minutes, hours, days or month. I count it in years. It is three years today, Jan 5 that my son died. Nothing in the years to come will change that one fact or anything about that day. it will always be there, always be the same. My heart hurts as much now as it did that first moment of loss.