Words for the Journey

FROM BEGINNING TO END

I want to dedicate this to my Mom who passed away Thursday Sept 11 2014.I wrote this letter below and gave it to her in 1987. When my daughter and daughter in law were cleaning out her items, after she passed away, I found that she had kept this letter.... all these years!

Rest In Peace my loveEverlasting in my memoriesSo dearly loved

 Grief can be very overwhelming and leave us with feeling of helplessness.Even with established stages of grief: anger, denial, bargaining, and acceptance, we still are unique individuals and can experience so many different levels of pain.

I am just over two months into my Grief journey so I thought I would share some thoughts on it with you.

It is always there, just at the front of your mind. Whether you are conscious of it or not, it is aways there, the loss, the sadness the sorrow. Always there. You cannot step back from it for it is a part of you now, soaked deep into your heart, your soul.

Marine Sniper Sgt. Donald J.

Mom, remember this...Mom, remember that...How can I explain to themSome days I can't even Remember where I'm at?I've tried so hard,I'm trying still,But the fog in my headMakes it hard to doEven the simplest of things.

Ste just before you died you said you were worried you had not made a difference in your life.I said to you- Ste you served in the Army you cared for disabled people in the NHS you fathered a son brought up five children and helped to raise my little girl but the most important thing was you had loved and you were loved with a passion

 Posted by Zell on September 25, 2014 at 5:30amView Blog

5 months: Wednesday 24 SeptemberPosted by Zell on September 25, 2014 at 5:00amView BlogThe deep dull ache intensifies on weekly and monthly "anniversaries". The 5 month mark dawned on Wednesday 24 September.  I bought 5 red helium-filled balloons - one popped on the way home.

My journey of grief started when the love of my life Ste died. It was and still is a very deep connection. At first I was in shock and felt numb.