Words for the Journey

One day I hope to see you againOne day I hope to hold you againOne day I hope to hold your handOne day I hope I'll understandOne day I hope to live my lifeOne day I hope to see the lightOne day I hope,I'll be okayone day I hope this will all go awayOne day I hope to be the best I can be

Six months ago, tragedy struck our family and after a very sudden 24-hour illness, my sons and I lost a great man, their father and my husband. Before today, I never really knew how many tears one person could produce and quite how long six months could feel. It can be a torturous eternity.

A Reason and Time for Every Matter Under Heaven… Even for a Samurai Warrior

What's on my mind? I have 8 days to write a letter, face the pain and send the letter and the pain to heaven..It's almost a year and I made my self a promise.I was definitely daddy's lil girlFrom the time I was twoI remember I used to put on his shoesI remember going to the city Riding the LIRR I was going to work with dad

I'm learning to navigate act 2 of my lifeit's quite a learning curveI don't have to tell you that

you promised me you were not going anywhere and everything would be okyou promised me not to break my heart you couldn't help being you just another daygrowing up wasn't easy for youprobably your whole life Until you turned 72a place that was dark and you could not see the light

Everyday I wake upI open my eyesthere are times, I feel very sadthere are times I feel very bluewho can blame me? I really miss youthe hurt, the pain, the reality of it allcan be just too much to handle especially when you have been here beforewhen I wake upand open my eyesthats when I start to realize

One day at a timeis all we can doits the only thing we canand know what's trueIf you can look yourself in the mirror and know you have done all you canthat's all we can do as woman and manWe are born into this worldwithout a choicethey only thing you can hear is my voiceSo if you can hear me

 Every year, as the anniversary of my daughter's death approaches, something in my body knows.   I become forgetful, day-dreamy, sedentary and self-focused.  I feel a need to nurture myself, to take it easy.  Some years, I have felt a need to honor the day.

 I thought of you today--of course--I think of you everyday.

It never crossed my mind that you wouldn't be hereI thought we had more time, at least another yearThere isn't a day that I don't think of you and the places we wentI'm so grateful for the memories and the time we got to spendI know in my heart you wouldn't want me to spend the rest of my life upsetIf you were alive you would have won that bet...

The mind tends to follow along the paths it's always knownin my case it's sharing with herwhen I see something interestingI instinctively reach for my phoneor turn to herto tell her about itand share what I've seenor heardor feltor thoughtwe were truly onein almost every waymarried for 37 years