Words for the Journey

The day may come when you start to hide your deep sadness, your greatest sorrow. Not because you're ashamed of your grief, far from it. You start to hide it because you have become ashamed of others and are unwilling to dishonor your lost love one by sharing your loss with them. You hide your grief, bury your sorrow from the prying, critical eyes of the world.

The Melodies from the heart foundation is a foundation that creates music on the loss of a child. On one hand to give some comfort on the other hand to try to break the taboo on such a great loss. This year for the Candle Lighting we made a song with a video for which people could send in a short clip of their candle.

From birth I have been a loner. It was not by choice in the beginning, but circumstances. As I got older, alone became choice as well as being ingrained in my DNA. It did not matter who I was with or where I was, I was always on the outside looking in. It did not bother me, I liked my solitude. Then, I had my two kids. One cannot stay to themselves when they have a newborn in their arms.

Christmas without you So Christmas is nearly upon us

I will never forget the day our four year old son asked me “Where is your mommy?” It wasn’t a question I was prepared for. I had barely dealt with my own grief, much less thought ahead enough to explain to our son why he doesn’t have two grandmas like everyone else. I remember feeling a rush of overwhelming emotions.

I’m going to say to you what I wish I’d gotten a chance to say to my daughter. In 2013 she took her own life at the age of 15 due to severe depression. Since I’ll never be able to say these things to her, as part of me getting better, I’ll say it to you instead (thanks for listenin

The biggest hurt and deepest pain is when our child dies. Death itself brings pain unless you cannot feel at all, but the loss of a child has nothing that compares, at least for me. I have lost many and find that if I combined the pain of the losses, they could not come close to the loss of my son. I do not say this to minimize the sorrow of any lost loved one.

Peace is something that is hard to find these days. To think of “peace” differs from what we feel of love that seems to be romantic or hatred that seems to be energetic. Everyone wishes for a peaceful living and there is no small place or corner of the earth that never needs peace.

MC: Happy Morning Ems, I see you are all bundled up!Ems:” Morning MC.  Brrr..it is sooo …cold”MC: “Winter is here for sure. Interested in hearing about our Specials for today?”Ems:” Always! Smells like heaven in here!”

Have you ever seen an AngelSpread their wings and take to flightHave you heard The Angel’s ChoirSing Amazing Grace and Silent NightHave you felt the warmth of starsAs they light up the whole skyHave you Felt the Hand of JesusAs he touches you and IHave you ever felt white lightAs it fills your soul with Love

The Holidays are here. And they hurt.

Goodnight nan x The time has come,To lay you to rest,But I know in my heart,God only takes the best You were always there,To lend a shoulder and dry my tears,To comfort me in everything,And to help conquer my fears In my heart, there will always be