Words for the Journey

 I am standing right beside youAs I wipe away your tearYou see I never really left youFor Heaven truly is right hereI hear you asking GodWhy on Earth I had to goBut, I’m still standing at your sideI love you more than you could knowHeaven is truly all around youI am the wind within your hair

There is no one, no matter how close they are to you, no matter how well they think they know you, there is no one who will really understand your sorrow unless they have that same sorrow. Even then, they can only judge your pain by the example of their own. If they have never experienced your type of grief, they have no scale to measure by. None.

The actual turbine that took my brother's life. 

 Life after a funeral doesn’t need to be spent in what ifs or what could have been; it’s time to reach out to your family. Everyone is going through their own turmoil as we age: Health, making ends meet, the death of family, friends and even sadly the death of our children. So, it’s now has been six years since we buried our oldest son, Charlie.

Grief has made me do things I never thought I would do. Good and bad.

Early on in my grief journey, I realized this was not going to be a "get over it quickly" type of thing.  I had a strong desire to read everything I could on grief, suicide, and the afterlife.  I came to realize quickly that this journey will not end until I take my last breath.  People have asked me how I stay strong and this is what I explain to them. 

Flyin’ Free On The Wind 

My doctor told me that I'm dying todayI have three to six months and no moreThe doctor told me that my cancer would winThen he turned and he walked out the door

I sit in your chair, Look out at your viewTrying to feel, a small part of you

Today I had the pleasure of attending Seacoast Salutes!  It was held in Portsmouth and helps support our Veterans!  I got out my black leather vest that my niece gave to me after my dad, a Marine and WWII Veteran that his boots first hit foreign soil on Iwo Jima, died of lung cancer in 2011.  She had it made with all his Marine information and logo on the back.  What an incr

I do not know if you grew up in a small town or not, but I did, Fort Edward, New York.  It is a small town in upstate New York.  I graduated with about 60 kids at that time in 1975.…..  There is something about driving into the small town that you grew up in.  A sense of peace and history…….I always pass the cemetery where too many of my family members rest…….all kinds of th

I know you are in Heaven nowand how I miss you soBut thinking of you has a wayOf making my Soul GlowYou always found time every dayTo be loving and kindAnd underneath my smileAre your memories left behindI know you wouldn’t want to seeMe crying all the timeSo if the choice is up to meYou'll be sure to see me shine